AArgh! It’s February already – Hell, it’s nearly March, and I JUST CAN”T GET GOING!!
Last year was mad. I Pushed and Stretched and rushed around in busyness, just falling shy of actually getting to the scary, meaty parts of what I wanted to accomplish. I did accomplish a lot – I need to acknowledge that, but I know I didn’t plunge into tasks that I felt anxious about. You know, like starting a blog – things like that.
So I’m going through the motions a bit so far this year. Ticking jobs off the list, doing things I enjoy, things that I feel a bit nervous about, but nothing that terrifies me. That’s what I need to work on. The TERRIFYING things. Because that’s how I know I’m living my life. Then those things are not terrifying anymore, just kind of scary, and I’ve grown up a bit.
I watched this wonderful documentary… http://www.channel4.com/programmes/fabulous-fashionistas/4od (ok, I will figure out how to do that properly later – I’ve just got to do this now or I won’t). It’s about 6 beautiful and inspiring women with an average age of 80, who are RELISHING life. They talk about feeling lucky to be around – one of them said about death that she thinks “will it be today?” and then gets on with her day. Some of them started new careers very late in life. I have so much potential life left! We are the youngest we are ever going to be, and we can begin a new life right now!
Feeling the fervour and zeal stimulated by these thoughts and this film I went outside and … brushed the cat. Then I came back in and typed this babble. Ok, it’s a start, and I’m absolutely going to click the “publish” button and unleash it unto the world. Sorry. It’s not perfect, and it’s a bit terrifying, and that means I must do it.